Humility again!

  Just when life seems comfortable and I become self satisfied, the Universe decides it is time for another lesson. It happens on a regular basis, so you would think I would learn the lesson of humility.  Evidently, I am a slow learner.   Extra tutoring is needed.  Today class was back in session. 

It began innocently enough as I went off to visit someone this morning.  I have been working with this woman for about six months.  She challenges me, stretches me and doesn't for one minute let me be comfortable in my skin.  It drives me crazy.  It also keeps me on my toes.  Today when I expressed discomfort about doing a piece of work for her, she began to tell me what I needed to be an effective advocate for anyone.  My hackles went up.  How dare she tell me what to do, or how to do it, simply because we didn't agree.  I know what I am doing.  I have been doing it for twenty-five years.  My stubbornness kicked in.  No way, no how, was she going to change my mind after that tirade.  I did remain polite but firm as I declined again her invitation to do something for her.

Later in the afternoon she appeared in my office to make an appointment to come talk to me about my decision.  I pointed out that I had given her my reasons.  Five more minutes were all I was prepared to give to the discussion.  We will see how that goes later in the week when she comes in.

After I had a chance to reflect about what happened, I realized I had been defensive.  While my decision I believe is the right one for me in this situation, what can I learn from the whole experience?  Can I open myself to learn from this woman?  Can I put aside my ego and hear the wisdom which may be present?  Can I allow myself to be changed for the better by this encounter?  I hope so.  The other option is to be frustrated and annoyed through most of this relationship, which will not be helpful for either of us. 

Ego is strong.  It protects us but it can get in the way.  The Universe is a gracious teacher and continues to provide opportunities to learn about letting go of ego and accepting gifts from other people.  I pray for the strength and grace to be able to do that.  Remedial work is no fun!